Sometimes my heart is broken.
Sometimes I think about how screwed up the world is.
Sometimes I think about becoming a socialist.
Sometimes I think about trying to ignore the burden of injustice.
Why did I choose this subject to study? It makes me cry. It makes me feel helpless and small.
Sometimes I think about Elia and the Longview trailer park.
And my Kindergartners, who are now First Graders.
And I want to change the world, even though that sounds dumb.
Hey Kim - As hard as it is, i think it's good to realize the depth of the brokenness of the world because that gives you a glimpse as to how heavy God's heart is and it's good not to get caught in a place where you think the world is okay. so good.
ReplyDeleteRecently I've heard a bunch of speakers talking about how the sacred shouldn't be separate from the secular.. so when you're studying it can give you insight into the human condition.
And you say you're helpless and small... well you are helpless and small. But the joy comes in that God is so much bigger and has His hand on the wholee story of life. So it's not your job to fix all the problems of the world. But it is your job to ask what God wants you to do for Him.. because He isn't just leaving you in a world full of injustice. He has His hand on every area of the world and is entirely in control.
Thanks Cecily! I am doing pretty well with the balance between seeing injustice and still having joy and hope. I suppose this day I just felt particularly angst-y! It is really hard to figure out how to live a life that is committed to justice, while also dealing with school, thinking about financial issues, trying to reject popular American culture, etc. But I think what counts is that you are aware and try to do something, because so many people aren't, or they are and are too tired/busy/self centered to do anything.
ReplyDeleteLove you!