waiting

For us 09-10 MY-ers, last month was mostly made up of waiting for our city assignments. I think that every day one of us would comment on our facebook group and say something like,“Everyday that passes where I don’t receive an email telling me what city I’m in causes the suspense to kill a little piece of me inside" (thanks for that little gem, Hassan). April 31st we complained and commiserated all day…. Some of us stayed up past midnight waiting to receive an email telling us where we would be spending the next year (I went to sleep, content to find out in the morning. Haha). I’m sure the rest of my fellow 09-10 team members that I wasn’t corresponding with on facebook also felt the same anticipation.

And now we finally know!! I am placed in Atlanta, which I could not be happier about! When I read that line in the email, I literally felt jittery with excitement. My hands were shaking and it was really funny.

And now we have to wait some more. Waiting is really hard.

I really need to try and focus on what is going on here at home and not give everything a halfhearted effort because I am looking forward to the future so much… But it’s hard. I keep thinking, “I’ll just be leaving in a few months, so why…(fill in the blank).” I’m trying to think of Mission Year as already starting and trying to live out the commitment to “Love God. Love people. Nothing else matters” now, before I move to Atlanta.. And not doing so great a job of it, honestly! It’s also hard not really knowing what to prepare myself for, or how to even prepare at all.

I’m trying to wait patiently… and failing.